Well, the 365 day mark has come and gone, and that's OK. Press Handstand? No. But that's OK. So much has happened and changed in this last year...
On a long run the other day, I had an "aha" moment. It was a really tough long run and I really felt like I was struggling with each step. And it was oh so slow. So in my typical fashion, especially when I'm feeling fatigued, I started to beat myself up. The negative self talk started... I'm so slow. I'm not making any progress. I suck at running. Blah, blah, blah. But I kept moving forward anyway. And then it occurred to me, I'm doing the best I can. Given my circumstances, I'm doing the very best that I can with what I have available to me right now. And that's good enough. I can't beat myself up for what I can't do or what I think I should be able to do (well, I can, but it's pretty counter-productive). What I can do is give it my all and keep moving forward, and try to allow myself grace and acceptance for where I'm at. And to really keep that big picture in mind, keep things in perspective, and honor, appreciate, and celebrate where I'm at.
This last year has challenged me, changed me, and taken me far out of my comfort zone. My health isn't perfect or where I want it to be or where I think it should be. I still have my ups and downs and they're mostly still a mystery. But I'm so much healthier than when I started this blog, and I continue to move forward.
"Your journey has molded you for the greater good, and it is exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time." -Asha Tyson
